How did becoming a grown up happen so fast. Every month goes by faster and faster each year - which I know every adult told us when we were kids not to wish time away it would be gone before we knew it. So when did I become the adult that is responsible for really-important-life-changing-decisions? Was it like this when I was a young 24 year old - I don't remember it...
Over the past week my heart has been weighing heavy with important decisions - and potentially life changing decisions. I have shed alot of tears, exhausted many hours of thought, and still not made any final decisions. I just don't know how life got this difficult and how making one choice could be so difficult.
The thought of moving away from someone you love with your whole heart is not an easy choice - but staying at a place where your heart is not there any more isn't the right choice either. I've heard the same thing over and over - "Rachel just do what will make you happy." That's easy right? I must be broken because the "easy" choice is the most difficult decision of my life (so far).
So the choice - move to find a job I am passionate about again AND therefore move away from the person I am madlycrazy in love with (and he is with me :o) )
-Or stay unhappy, unpassionate, and constantly frustrated with my current opportunity AND stay with the person I am madlycrazy in love with.
Lots weighing on my mind and heart.
Lord hear my prayer - give me the wisdom to make the right decision and lead me to where I can do your will. - Amen.
If anyone has any great words of advice please I would love to hear.
1 comment:
keep praying, keep searching, if you are able to find a good job that is a little further away, those of us that love you will STILL love you!!! and if you are meant to stay here, you will, and hopefully you will be able to find peace with that and be happy where you are at... HUGS friend :)
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